this life was too much for her to carry

too much invisible weight and luggage, just kept piling up.
and when it got to much she would disappear for some time.
fly away to sort and rearrange it all. to balance the good and the bad.
always hoping the equation would come out positive.

this time it was negative. this time she flew away forever.

i do not know if there is a heaven or a second life.
but tonight i am praying that there is something out there.
something better. someone taking care of her.